Broken Down

"I stopped by his house tonight and he was obnoxious right from the start. It was horrible. He told me he didn't want me there and that he had told me no before, which he didn't. Then he told me to go home. Then he told me I was at his house 24 hours a day.

He's the one who told me I could come to his house no matter whether he was there or not and that I was always welcome and now he's going back on that.

He embarrassed and hurt me in front of his parents and MS. It was awful and it still hurts thinking about it.

He basically told em I was a pest and a bother to him and he only wanted me there when it was convenient for him.

AND that hurts, more than he'll ever know.

The worst part is I can't cry: It hurts so much I can't cry."

College Choices

I can tell you right now that the number one reason I choose the school I did for college was because of it's proximity to my house. The fact that I ended up with a full ride scholarship there was a consolation prize.

I picked the school closest to DH first. But the cost was astronomical. So I picked the closest state school and ran with it. Looking back now I wonder what would have become of my life if I had the courage to venture a little farther. Attend a state school a bit farther away.

As it was, during this time I was looking at colleges but the only thing I was thinking was how do I find something that is the shortest distance away from where he will be.